I have never been put this low in my life.  I have never had my integrity and dignity trampled on by anyone until recently.  What would you do if someone you cared about conveniently and proactively accused you of things way beyond your mind can imagine? I can never and will never put up with people who trample upon my integrity all because of illogical, narrow-minded, blindsided, pre-conceived biases and notions of the single Filipino guy.

Why I Blog
If you have been reading this and my other blogs, you would know by now that I blog because it is a passion.  There are millions of blogs and millions of bloggers out there, and all these bloggers have different reasons for doing what they do, for writing what they write.  Some people put up blogs because they want to earn, some because their jobs entail them to, some because they wanna exchange ideas and knowledge with other people, and others because they wanna vent out their innermost thoughts and emotions.   There are many million reasons why these millions of bloggers blog.  

I blog because it is my passion.  Sure there's a little extra earnings from my blogs (except livejournal), but that isn't why I blog.  Of course there's fame, recognition and a sense of acceptance.  But never did it cross my mind that blogging is an avenue for me to advertise myself and hook-up with random men online.  There are other outlets for that, so why would I use my blog, right?  And besides, hookups and one-night stands are no longer my cup of Japanese Cherry tea. I would never go so low as to advertise myself and actively seek fuck buddies.  I'm way over that, been there, done that.  

And if you really know me, you would know that all my pseudo-self-advertising here were written tongue-in-cheek.  You remember the entry about Bradley? That one entry that got me in trouble with my mom? Well that was a fiasco and I had to deal with someone close to me and explain to them what this blogging thing I have is all about.  And gladly, they understood. Why? Because my mom is open-minded and does not judge people based on hearsay or mere perception.

It has never occured to me until recently that some people do not, will not, and cannot understand the reasons why I blog.  One thing I'm sure of is that I have never and will never use my blog to advertise myself searching for fuckables.

Single Gay Filipino
There are many misconceptions about Filipinos, Gay men, Gay Filipino men, and Single Gay Filipino Men. I am one of them but that does not make me a whore; that doesn't make any of us whores.  Some people think that gay Filipinos are promiscuous.  I'm sure I'm speaking in behalf of many gay Filipinos here that this accusation is utterly untrue.

Just because I'm single, gay, Filipino and live alone, that doesn't mean that I am a whore and I go around hopping from one guy's bed to another's.  I won't act naive and virginal, but yes, I was like that before.  I have gone through that phase.  Been there, done that.

I live alone in a rented condo, but that doesn't mean I bring guys home and fuck with them there. If you know me really well, you would know that I'm currently a member of the Celibacy Association of the Philippines. And yes, if you know me closely, you would know how many men I have brought to my home  -  if there were any.

Just because we are single, gay, and Filipinos, it doesn't mean that we are whores or players.

Liar! Liar!
One thing I hate is liars! But what I hate more is when people accuse me of lying.  It is an undeniable fact that most of us succumb to this act due to forces beyond our control and some reasons that only we know. However, if every single thing that you do is equated with a lie, things become different.  What if someone you care about a lot responded to every single thing that you say with a negative remark insinuating that you're lying? It's difficult right? What can you say?  Nothing. Because whatever you say will be welcomed by a snotty retort filled with baseless accusations.

Baseless Accusations
I'm not a lawyer but I know that someone is innocent until proven guilty.  Before you make accusations, you have to make sure that your claims have evidence and you can warrant the veracity of your claims and evidence. He who asserts  must prove. If you accuse someone of something, the burden of proof lies upon you and not your accusee.

If your evidences are mere hearsay, narrow-minded pre-conceived biases, paranioa and blindsidedness, your accustaions will not hold water.  I have been recently accused of so many things, to wit: player, liar, slut, whore, opportunist - the list goes on. Never in my life have my integrity and dignity been trampled like they have been recently.  I cannot put up with baseless accusations and name-calling - even from the ones I love.  I am my own person and nothing and no one can put me down without me fighting.  Because If I know I'm in the right, I will stand up and fight for myself.  This then is not a question of love or loyalty, it is a question of trust and respect.

Incessant nagging because of trivial things, which lead to utterly impossible and baseless accusations, is something I will not put up with.  

Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words and baseless accusations will never break my spirit. I will not let go without a fight.  I do not have to prove anything to anyone, but when my integrity is questioned baselessly, I will retaliate.

False Prophets
In light of recent events in my life, some false prophets have sprung up like weeds on soil.  These people claim that they have slept with me and have gotten in contact with me through my blog.  These people also claim that they left messages or comments in one of my blogs, to which I responded, which eventually led to me sleeping with them. And that's just icing on the cake.  The cake is that I have slept with them on more than one occasion and that I have also slept with a million other guys that I have met through my blog. To be very objective about it, I should be happy. Because at least, even if it's just a figment of someone's imagination - I got laid, and more than once at that!

Now these false prophets better check their claims, because by the looks of it, they seem like they are the new Fred Phelps.  Hey, why don't they put up their own Westboro Baptist Church like the close-minded members of that sick family. I'm quite sure they will have a blast!

Young and Immature
My youth has always been a problem for a lot of people.  Naturally, people who are older than we are would think that they are more mature than us.  Right? Same thing goes for us, we would think that people who are younger than us need to learn more about life and that they have to develop a sense of maturity.  This is flat-out wrong.  Age never equates with level of maturity.  Just because I'm young, or as much as I'd like to think I am, it doesn't mean that I do not know anything about life and that I have not experience the worst of things that can happen to any human being.  Of course maturity is relative.

I may be young but I have been through a lot in this life.  Things that most people can never fathom happening to anyone. But then again, I'm just one little dot in this big world, so it doesn't really matter does it? It just pains me to hear people telling me that I am young and I still have to go through many things in life.  I accept that fact, no matter how painful, but this I can say: People may be older than I am, but that doesn't make them superior over me.

I may have to grow a lot older for growing older is mandatory, but I choose to grow up too.  We may be older than other people out there, but that doesn't automatically make us Grown Ups.

Remember, growing older is mandatory, but growing up is optional. 

I choose to grow up.